My latest interior decorating purchase

I bought this old educational poster in my favourite store "Kult & co", that my former wood craft teacher owns, on my last visit in Halmstad. I had been thinking about buying it for quite some time and finally decided to do it. And I am so glad I did...I love it, and it makes me happy every time I look at it! The colours goes perfectly with the rest of my combined living-/bedroom. The coffetable and the lamp is bought in that store as well...They might have been too expensive for a student like me...but who cares? When I look at these things I feel at home, I feel love and I feel that this is me! A bit nerdy?! Yes indeed! :)

I am sure...

Hang in there darling!

First day

My first day at the new job is over. And there was, of course, nothing to be nervous about...Nice and friendly staff, and my classmate S had her 4th introduction day today as well. It's always nice to have a familiar face in unknown territory...=)

I'm working again tomorrow morning, then Friday night and Saturday morning. Thinking about it yesterday felt kind of hard, but today I'm glad. It's good with a change.Working make sense...studying doesn't....to be honest I can't stand anything that has something to do with school at the moment. So tonight I'm gonna finish an assignment and then I'm not thinking about school for the rest of the weekend!!

Now, if it doesn't rain, I'm taking a walk in the forest...the gym will have to wait until tomorrow. I've actually been good at this gym-thing the last couple of days...Step on Sunday and Afro and Core on Monday. Well done me!!!

Summer job begins..

Tomorrow morning I'm doing my first introduction shift at my summer job in the neurosurgeon care unit at the hospital. A bit nervous to be honest. I don't like being the newbie...

Now sleep...Wish me luck.

Time out

1. Why am I doing this?
2. What's the use of doing it?
3. Is it worth it?

I don't really feel regrets about doing this, but I do feel regrets about not doing the things I didn't chose. Tricky...

Song of the day - Not ready to make nice

Pep talk

Things might be oh so frustrating right now...but there is nothing to do about it. Focus focus focus. Do not explode, do not scream. Keep cool, take a deep breath, just smile, smile, smile (fake it till you make it)...

Song of the day - Fairytale

Different and charming. I like it! Extra plus for the amazing dancers.

Saturday

Tonight I'm watching Eurovision song contest even though I've lost a bit of interest in that competition in the last couple of years.
After wathcing the semi-final when Marlena got to final I actually got more excited reading about Måns Zelmerlöw playing Chicago, the musical, in London later this year.

Post exam

They will probably never stop surprising me...Some of the questions where so weird it's almost scary!!
For once in my life I am glad that I am a woman who have had a yeast infection...might have saved me this time...Time will tell!

Status

Pain: Headache r/t no glasses while studying and my ventilation/kitchen fan/electricity bill problem. VAS 4. Intervention: Analgesics

Nutrition: Pre-exam cravings for chocolate. At the moment hungry, but too tired to cook, have an almost empty fridge and no money. Risk for malnutrition.

If I could make a wish....

...then I would wish that I could go to an Elvis concert...

House cleaning

Effectiveness and creativity

I came to me at 8:15 this morning to study...and she just left. We got a lot of things done and it felt very efficient. Four days left to this semesters big exam...and I try to persuade myself that I have things under control and that I feel no stress...but my poor heart has start to beat irregularly again, not as bad as last time...My strategy for this stress related problem is that I will continue to pretend everything is cool...you know: Fake it, till you make it!

As always when it comes to serious studying I get all creative and with a million ideas (that unfortunately don't have anything to do with appendicitis, antibiotic treatment, Crohn's disease or cholesystitis). Not really a good thing when there is no time to act on these ideas. Instead I feed myself with some inspiring pictures and dream myself away...hoping that my creativity will last...

Utekravall

I don't like rain...especially not on a night when you are suppose to be outside and tonight it is Utekravallen.





<---- I have my wellies on!




Have to go...bye bye! xx

Hilarious

Song of the day - Är det här platsen

Peter Jöback and Eva Dahlgren

"...Är det här året då allting vänder? Steg för steg en dag i sänder..."

Something beautiful...

Evaluations and day dreaming...

Today I've done my last two evaluations of my clinical placement period. All together I've done 8 different (but still almost the same) about my 7 week placement period. Amazing. It might be a good idea for the University to coordinate things like this in some way...it would save us all a lot of work and most importantly a lot of TIME...and we all know time is precious... and time is money...

Speaking of money...did you know that you could buy this castle in Ukraine for only 1.8 million USD...

I need to stop day dreaming...and finish my studying for tonight...

Quote of the day

"I don't want to make money. I just want to be wonderful." -Marilyn Monroe

Lovely days and all grown up

I've had two wonderful days and nights. Lovely old friends and new acquaintances, sunshine from a blue sky, barbecue and rosé wine...mmm, sometimes life's really good.
Now I've had my fun for a week...tomorrow and Sunday will be devoted to studying.

I'm so tired right now...but had two cups of coffee at Å's place tonight so I probably won't be able to fall asleep. Caffeine affects me so much sometimes it's scary.
At the dinner at Å's place tonight I also ate onion, and did actually like it...MY GOD what is happening to me?????!!! (It might have been a ones in a lifetime thing so try not to get too excited ok?!)
It must be the fact that I'm 25 now and all (?!) grown up...

Last day in april

Time flies...it's already the the last day of April. My God...where did this month go?!

On the schedule for this "Valborgsmässoafton" is picnic and barbecue in the park with Å and some other friends of hers. The sun is shining just as it has been for the last two weeks, but it's a bit windy. I'm soon off to Systembolaget to buy some wine...

Yesterday I bought a new bikini and a skirt...The bikini I kind of needed but the skirt was just pretty and on sale...bad bad me...I need to save some shopping for London...

Back in school

Had class in school today. A bit weird, since it's about 7 weeks since last time, but nice to actually see some of the other students...

Now it's time for a walk with Å and maybe some ice-cream...yummy!

Pictures from Saturday on the beach

Song of the day - Som jag hade dig förut

Going back...

Helgen är över. Molnen har dragit sig in över Halmstad och jag får den där melankoliska känsla man får när sommaren börjar lida mot sitt slut...trots att sommaren inte ens har börjat på riktigt.

Går dagen bjöd på årets första dopp i havet. Det var varmt på stranden, när man låg i lä och kallt i vattnet. Men jag och F hade ju pratat om det redan kvällen innan så det var ju bara att ta tjuren vid hornen och traska i plurret. L förevigade det hela med kameran från säkert avstånd i strandkanten.

Kvällen bjöd på restaurangbesök med kära M och sedan en sväng till Morfars för att sedan avsluta på Mårtensson. En bra kväll överlag...mycket folk jag inte sett på länge. Memory lane var vackert igår!

Snart går bussen...

Halmstad

A weekend in Halmstad. The forecast predicts 18 degrees C and sun tomrrow, a few degrees cooler today, but sun as well! How lovely isn't that??!

Outside studying is on the schedule today...just because I'm in Halmstad doesn't mean I'm study free unfortunately.

Oh...I wish I could stay longer!!

In about a year I might be moving back...at least that's my plan. But you never know what the future bring.

All I know is that some of the most lovely people live here...and I miss them when I'm away!

Now breakfast on the balcony... xx

Luxury studying

Tonight I just had to do something to make the studying a bit more fun.

There was a little left of the sparkling Rosé wine from Saturday night and some dark chocolate with raspberries...Delicious...
Now it's time for bed and I only have 250 more words to write. That's tomorrow's project.

Good ending of a nice weekend, with nice company and nice, sunny, warm weather! Tell you more about this Easter weekend tomorrow...

Lunch at the balcony

Todays checklist

Sore throat: 1
Runny nose: 1
Fever: > 37,5 C
Body weight in kilos: 60 (Not OK! What the fuck happened?!)
Conversations with stupid teacher: 1
Things to do: 10 000 000
Motivation: - 5
London vacations booked: 1 (Thank God and sis!)

25 years old....oh my GOD!

More musicals to the people!!

Wednesday afternoon wisdom

The most beautiful bag in the world

Birthday gift to me from myself??? Well, yes maybe...
...Accessorize here I come!!!

Tired

13 hours of sleep...and I'm still tired. I've tried to study all day...but I've nodded at at least one time on every page.
It might be because of the fact that I'm tired after the Berlin trip...It might be because my brain and I is over stressed about the upcoming 4, 5, 6 weeks...it might be because of the weather (snow again...)

Berlin

I'm soon off to the airport. Being picked up at 4 am. The flight to Berlin is due at 6.30. Early start.
In Berlin we (me and I and some others from Uni) will attend an International forum for quality and safety in health care.

I'm excited, even tough there is something putting a shadow over it right now.

See you Saturday again.

Bad result

Oh! Fuck wank bugger shitting arse head and hole!

(I borrow this quote from Billy Mac in Love Actually tonight...kind of fits right now)

Baby dry your eyes - day

Today the sun is shining!!!

• I had an interview for a summer job at the hospital at 10 am.
  
• I had my new spring shoes on.

There is hope for changes!

On my way to the hospital, with the sun warming my face I got true spring feelings. And I got to think of Marit Bergman's album Baby dry your eyes. One of my favourite albums.

Spring and Marit Bergman goes hand in hand and it makes me think of that spring I spent in London. I listened to that album almost everyday in my CD-player on my way to work. I can still remember where I was walking to each particular song:

The intro played on my way down the elevator, I turned at the Café Nero corner in the beginning of Tomorrow is today, and when Let's just fall in love was playing I was usually somewhere around the Serpentine in Hyde Park.

I wish I could meet the spring in London...

Sunset over Hyde park

Song of the day - You're my world

A real feel-good song with Emilia from last nights Melodiefestival.

Spring shoes

The zipper on my black leather boots broke yesterday when I was about to go home from work. Luckily I had adhesive tape in my pocket and could get them on place under the jeans after some juggling.

This little mishap led me straight to town on a mission to buy a pair of new spring shoes! (Yeay! Me like!)

Here's the result! Very comfy, but a bit pale together with my winter skin at the moment... (that will of course change when spring and sun arrives!)

Today I Ioved it...

Life is a roller-coaster...

After a rather disappointing start of the week and my clinical placement period I finally had a really, really good day!
Me and C had a whole day together with the breast nurse at the hospitals breast surgery. The nurse was amazing with the patients...And the doctor as well.

I got the chance twice to be in the room (after the patients permission of course) when the doctor gave the woman her breast cancer diagnosis.
It was very valuable for me as a student to participate as an observer in this meeting between the doctor and the patient but it was also very physically challenging. It's hard not to get too emotional when the patient does.

I also participated in meetings between the nurse and patients after breast surgery/breast removal.
The most emotional moment was when a woman for the first time after the breast removal looked in the mirror together with the nurse.
Both me and C had a hard time keeping our tears away. But the nurse was so great at this moment and I'm so glad I got the chance to experience it.

...early night tonight, I'm exhausted!

Clinical Placement - Not my cup of tea

I'm sorry. But I don't think it's fun to be out on clinical placement.
I hate it.

I thought this second day would be better than the first, because the first is always a complete mess. But no, my tutor was sick...so who would take care of me??? No-one really knew...After half an hour I got a new tutor for the day...thank God I'll have the same tomorrow...otherwise I would have called in sick as well.

My schedule is still not completed, I'm missing two days...and I want to have it all clear. But it seems like a bit too much to ask at the moment.
I hate when I can't make up plans and I hate when I don't have things under control.

Now I need to do the dishes and have myself a good cry (I really need it) before I go to bed.

True happiness

March weather

It's snowing in Linköping today...tiny snowflakes that melts as soon as they touch the ground. Almost like rain...

I'm going to I's place later and I guess I will have to put my rainwears on.

Sunshine...give me sunshine!!!

Well, at least it hasn't been minus degrees for a few days now. Always something I guess.

It's funny how the weahter affects people...right now everyone is a bit touchy and grumpy. Including me. 

Everything feels hard, even the easiest task feels like a massive mountain to climb. 

   

Tomorrow afternoon I start this semesters clinical placement period. This time I will do my 7 weeks on KAVA (a surgical emergency treatment care unit) at Linköpings University Hospital. I will also spend four days at the surgical ward. Hopefully I will think of this as very exciting. It's always a little hard the day before you start because you now how much energy the placement period takes from you. So many new impressions. So much new knowledges to deal with, and you always have to be at your very best, at the top of you performance. It's a true challange.

Hopefully I will have a less stressful experience this time when I don't have to commute. And thank God I don't have to feel lonely and sad in a shabby room that belongs to the hospital of Motala. 

There's no place like home and your own bed!

Time to get some things done again...

xx

Sunday = study day

Goodmorning... or maybe it's a bit too late for that...

Anyhow...I've just finished breakfast.

So now it's time to get some schoolwork done. Boring on a Sunday...but in the world of a student there is no such thing as a completly studyfree weekend...and since I had some other things to do yesterday, like making a birthdaycard for S and working on mom's birthdaygift, today is the study day. 

I've placed myself in the sofa with the computer in my lap. I can't be bothered to take out the books so will do my research on the internet...Wikipedia here I come!

(Victor Charlie Charlie to Mike Sierra Foxtrot. When are you coming home? Over and out.)

New things

I am a little short of time at the moment. As always...so much to do and so few people to do it for me!
And most of the time I am wandering around wishing I was somewhere else...like in Australia where sis and E and W is at the moment. I envy you.
At the moment I make little trips in the snow to the tanning salon so that I can have my new purple dress on Thursday evening without looking like a dressed up ghost.

Two weekends ago mum and dad came up with the shelf I bought and to help me paint the walls in the flat. The result was very satisfying!

Song of the day - Hey there Delilah

Haven't put a song of the day in for long now...so here is a beautiful song that I really like listening too.
Plain white T's with the song Hey there Delilah. Enjoy it...

Just checking....

Beach 2009 ?!

Beach 2009 is coming up...sooner or later...so last week I renewed my membership at the gym.

Started this years training with Pilates yesterday and tonight I'm attending a BodyJam class...feels good!

Shoe-shopping!

On last weeks Friday I walked down to city to buy paper to my writer and some other stuff you need when you study. I bought all of the stuff I needed but I also happend to slip in to the store Din Sko to look at some shoes. As a happy surprise they had two tables with summer shoes on sale! And what a sale! When I got out of the store I was 3 pair of shoes richer but ONLY 297 kr poorer!

All that I need now is some sunshine on my legs. And there is hope for spring and sunshine since I had this years balcony premier this weekend. Cold but lovely!

Injured

I was cleaning last night and got injured!
I banged my thumb in to the microwave oven and the nail got bent backwards...and then there was blood...

Today the nail is a bit blue-ish and really sore...

Housework is evil and must be stopped!!

The law

February

This is the worst month of the year.
The weather is bad. Cold, cloudy, snow and ice...and after a long winter with no sun shine, it is the month where I have no energy what so ever left. I've emptied my supply...I need to refill...but how??

Give me spring...or a month in the Caribbean...or anything that will take me out of this tiredness and headache!

The moon

The sky is pitch dark...no stars and no moon...
Sometimes when it's cloudy I miss the moon more than the sun.
Even though I love the sun the moon is something special...lights up the darkness and brings you comfort, just as the tulips.

I'm walking down memory lane tonight. I found all sorts of letters and cards and notes and journals while clearing my clutter. Some of it I just read and put straight in the bin but some letters I cannot throw away...like the ones that make your heart smile...and like the one with the ending:

"...yet again I would like to emphasize that you are worth the moons weight in gold, when I look at it, it is made of gold."

Things and stuff...

Long time no see.

I can't really blame my blog absence on being too busy with school work, since that would be a big fat lie...this course really sucks when it comes to learning something. But I won't complain because there is other things to do when study doesn't take all of your time. Like clean, cook, bake, eat, sleep, wash, iron, stare in to a wall, talk to your plants, hang out with people IRL, watch telly and movies, apply for a summer job, read the newspaper, read novels etc. etc. (You probably get the picture)

I have also invested in tulips this last week. I love tulips! Gives me some sort of comfort. A sign that spring is on its way even though it is + 3 C and I can't remember when I last saw the sun...

Yesterday my book, that I got for free, arrived. It's called: Clear you clutter with Feng Shui by Karen Kingston.
Started to read it and it might actually be some interesting reading after all. I have already started to clear some of my clutter...but more can be done. I'll give you an update on how it goes later on...
...Speaking about books I'm also reading Now Let me sing you gentle songs by Linda Olsson at the moment. That's a beautiful novel that I can recommend.

Now I'm gonna iron and watch some episodes Sex and the City and then maybe bake cinnamon buns...

Have a lovely afternoon my friends!

The Butterfly of Freedom

Inspiration

This picture from the interior magazine Sköna Hem inspired me to my latest buying. A new shelf. It's not exactly as the one on the picture, but has the same colour (more or less), the same pattern on the cabinet doors (my shelf has two doors, and no drawers) and is from the same era.

I'm gonna exchange my IKEA TV-bench for this new shelf...And I can't wait to do it. I've hated that IKEA- bench since the day I put it in. It is nothing wrong with, it's a good and functional TV-bench, but it is just sooo not me! The only thing with this new shelf is that my fat-TV won't fit on it...so I have to buy a new TV as well...Oh well, worse things can of course happen... ;-)

A week at "home"

I slept until 12.20 pm today...and it was absolutely wonderful to get a whole night with good sleep! Had a lot of twisted dreams. Guess I had a lot of thoughts, emotions and impressions to process.

Now I'm at "home" in Halmstad. Drove from Linköping around 4. It was dark, foggy and rainy but I got here in one piece!
I've spent the evening in the sofa watching telly and flipping through some interior magazines. A nice and quiet time with mom.

Tomorrow morning I'm off to work...7-10. Haven't been there since summer, so I am actually looking forward to it. (But I probably won't feel like this tomorrow morning at 5.45 when I wake up...)

The plan for my study-free week is to not have too many plans. Take the day as it comes. Ofcourse I've already got some plans like working a little bit, visiting L and her baby togheter with D on Thursday, have some quality time with M when she is not working and visit granma E and grandma H, just to mention a few...

I'm also gonna put up a strategy for 2009...the year who is about to start for me any day now!

Take a deep breath and...

Bad night

I couldn't fall asleep last night....I tried everything...
At 1.30 I changed place to the sofa...fell asleep for 1 hour between 2 and 3...changed over to the bed again...and after the newspaper arrived around 4 I fell asleep and stayed asleep til 5.30...then the alarm went off at 6.
Wonderful...no, not really!

Good luck to me after a night like this...

Only one more day...

I wish...

Bild: Paul Costello

Spotify

I just found an e-mail from J and it contained an invitation to Spotify!

I don't think I could get any happier at the moment. J is my favourite person in the world right now... He sure made my Friday night!

A reminder...

I have some saved text messages on my phone. I've saved them because they mean too much to me to be deleted. The oldest one is from August 2000. I've saved it because it is the nicest thing someone ever told me (or in this case written to me),and I know that the person who wrote it really meant it...I read it when I have a hard time remember the good things about myself...

"När man känner dig är det svårt att skilja på dröm och verklighet..." ("When knowing you it is hard to seperate dream from reality...")

It's good to have a reminder like that when you are in a period with lacking self-esteem like I am at the moment...

...or to be more exact: It is always good to have a reminder like that!

Still in 2008...

I know it's 2009 now...but my new year has not yet started. I'm still in the lousy year of 2008.
I'll be back when things feel a little bit lighter...maybe in a week or so...

The first minutes of 2009

At midnight we went up to the viewing point at Galgberget to look at the fire works in the city.

That was a nice ending of 2008 and beginning of 2009.