Keeping busy...

The past week has been busy, busy, busy...

Tuesday
The day of the exam - and what a crazy exam...it gave me a bad headach that's still torturing me. I spent the afternoon shopping with I. Bought a dress, a t-shirt, leggings and two vests at Gina Tricot, major grocery shopping at Maxi, mini-light strand for the balcony and two cerise christmas tree balls (even though I don't have a Christmas tree) at Rusta and lots of candles at IKEA. I felt so worth all that shoppig!! And It felt so good to have a full fridge again. I went to bed early that night...

I love a full fridge!

Wednesday
The alarm clock rang at 4.15 am. Lovely...absolutely lovely...NOT! But nothing to about that more than to get up, take a shower, get dressed, eat breakfast and get out to the car and drive all the way to Motala...(I thank the guy who invented the car and mom for letting me have hers during my placement time!) They let me finish one hour early at the hospital so I was back in linköping around 3 pm. Did some "christmas decoration" in the flat and on the balcony. After that I cleaned the flat properly...something I hadn't done for weeks!

Thursday

Day off! Finally! Had million things to do...but half of it never got done. At least I finished the Cuba album on the computer and sent it away for printing. (Got an e-mail from fujicolor today saying it is on it's way...yay!!) I made a lot of lunch boxes, put the stars up in my windows...and then of course I looked for a stupid CD to my computer...turned the whole flat upside down...without any luck! Wonderful and clever J came over and fixed my computer that night...it took quite some time...because I hadn't found that stupid CD...and I went to bed at 2.45 am.

Friday
Got up at 10. Made lunch and then packed my bag and drove to Motala. Had the evening shift and spent the night in Motala.

Saturday
Morning shift at the hospital. Got of at 3 pm, drove back to Linköping, had a quick stop at the mall to get Å a birthday present. Home a 5 pm. Talked to my loved ones on the phone and then I hade to get ready for birtydayparty at Å's place. I was sooo tired and got home a 10.30 and went straight to bed...

Å's birthday presents

Sunday
The same a s friday...woke up and got ready for Motala. Evening shift at the hospital and then I spent the night again...

Monday
Day shift. Got back to Linköping at 4 pm. Absolutely knackered, watched The bold and the beautiful and then I went to bed at 8.20. Fell asleep...got woken up by the phone at 10 and the fell asleep again at 11...

Tuesday - today
Woke up at 10 am. Me and A hade decided last week to start with our placement - project that we have to finish before Christmas today but A sent me a text last night that she had other plans for today...and maybe we could meet up an other day? AN OTHER DAY??? It's not like we have a 1000 days to choose between...our hospital schedules are not really synced and she lives in Motala and I live in Linköping...but hey what can I do. I tried to start with the project on my own...it didn't go very good since we havn't decided everything about the subject yet and everything is very unclear.
Ohhh...I've been so sick of this studying situation today...and so sick of group-projects...and sick of group members that you haven't chosen yourself.
So after a breakdown around lunchtime time I decided to take the day off from school. Why should I take responsible for this project. I just cannot do everything by myself...I wish I was more irresponsible...I will work on that from now on...

So...what have keeping me busy all afternoon then?
Well... I've made a chocolate and banana cake and watched 6 episodes of Sex and the city...after this The bold and the beautiful episode I'm watching at the moment I'm cooking dinner and then I'm gonna watch some more Sex and the city...

I'm bored...

...it is soooo boring to study right now...But tomorrow at 12 o'clock I'm a "free" woman...at least until 6.45 am wednesday morning when I start my second placement period at the hospital in Motala...
...give me strength or at least something to laugh about...

I wish...

Song of the day - Tvivel

Lars Winnerbäck and Lisa Ekdal performing Tvivel...

Shop Class

...I wish there was such a thing as a shop class... I would easily get an A without studying 10 hours a day.

I'm sick of never get the feeling that I know enough, never have the feeling that my knowledge is on the right level...

At least I have the wonderful I to spend my studying time with...makes it bearable!
Tonight we made an apple pie and lovely F came over as well to "fika" and watch "Bonder söker fru" (Farmer seeks a wife) on the telly and after that we gossiped an hour away...

Now sleep....zzzzzzzzzz

What I want for Christmas...part 1

The weekend

The weekend started Friday night with take away food and Christmas card making together with Å. A very nice, calm and creative evening!

Over: Å's cards Under: My cards

I had an early start on Saturday...breakfast at 7.40 and drove off to I's place at 8.10 am.

Breakfast in front of the telly

Me and I sat in her sofa studying all day. Drove back home around 5 pm to eat dinner and get dressed for a party that evening.
This is what I wore

I and M picked me up at 7 pm. It was a good evening all in all, even if some parts were better than others. I got home around 2 am.
Today I got up at 10 and then I have spent the day studying together with I. Mom and dad paid a quick visit on their way from Stockholm.

Tonight i'm just taking it slow. Made a few lunch boxes to put in my freezer and then I made a smoothie that I will enjoy in front of the telly...quality time with my self! I like!!
Smoothie of the day: Mango, Orange and vanilla yoghurt

Glomerular filtration

Song of the day - Papercup Words

This is an old favourite of mine by Elin Sigvardsson. Her first album "Saturday light naive" is fantastic!

A rainy day!

Slept til 8 o'clock this morning. That felt good! Now I'm sitting by the kitchen table studying and through my window I can see a completly grey sky and rain, rain, rain...

On today's schedule is (beside studying): cooking, cleaning, making Christmas cards and watching Idol with Å. A productive day so to say...

Yesterday was a productive day as well. I came over around 8 o'clock and then we studied until 4.30 pm. After that I took my bike down to the gym and danced an hour away. Then I made chicken soup for dinner...mmm, yummy! Fell asleep around 10.30...absolutely wonderful since I've had problems falling asleep and staying asleep the past week.

November light in Linköping!

Wrong side

I woke up at the whining and bitching side this morning...sometimes I just can't help myself.

And I was not the only one in my group that woke up a bit extra irritable...but the thing is that I just can't hide it as well as the others...or more correctly, I can't hide it at all! Even though I try really, really, really hard!

But hey...what to do?! Since I don't have time to go to the gym at a regular basis and get all the aggressions out there...it needs to come out somewhere else...and today it's kind of seeping out...a little bit at a time.
I think I need to make time to go to the gym tonight since it might be the only way to avoid a total blow out.

Reading and writing and reading and writing...

I'm reading and writing and reading and writing...but the chapter about fluid and electrolyte imbalance never seem to end! I give up...

Earlier tonight me and I made a schedule for the two upcomin weeks...the two weeks before this semesters big exam. And the schedule is no fun at all...8 am - 6 pm every day that are free from lectures in school, including Saturday and Sunday...Ten whole days and some half...But I feel stressed. I'm still a lot behind with the renal function...I don't know how to catch up on that.

...todays examinating seminar was alright. The examinator was unfortunatly NOT a warm and pleasant person to be around (What's wrong examinators? I understand that they need to be hard when judging us, but do they really need to be unkind? Is that necessery?)but at least she seemd to like my groups presentation the best. Let's hope for the best...I'll know tomorrow.

Now I need sleep...

Song of the day - Another way to die

Mamma Mia!

For the third night in a week I'm not eating dinner at home. Saturday we (me, sis, E and the rest of E's family) had dinner (plus lunch and afternoon tea) at E's brother and wife's place, Monday night Å and M invited me over for lovely risotto and tonight I'm off to I's place to have taco dinner with the girls (I, F and S). I could so get used to this!!!

Tonight we'll also watch the Mamma Mia movie! Lovely!!

Tomorrow morning I'm meeting up with my group to prepare for the seminar on monday morning. I got a text earlier from J in my group explaining she is taking an interruption of studies as from today...and then we where only three...

Thank you America!

Woke up to the good news that America has elected Barack Obama as their new president.
And take a look at him, he is handsome!
(To me that is the most important quality!)

So much to do...

Movie night

I'm waiting for sis and E to arrive here in Linköping. They are staying at my place over the weekend and you know what? They have the Sex and the City movie with them and we are watching it tonight! Ohh...I can't wait! I love, love, love that movie!

I'm gonna be just as gorgeous on my wedding day!

Knackered

This week I've been kind of speeded...speeded with fake energy that's been released by some sort of compensation/defense mechanism in my body.

Right now I feel knackered...and unmotivated...

A sensation

Todays song is a song with a very young Peter Jöback from Melodifestivalen 1990....I just love it!! Makes me smile...

Tonight I'm actually going to the gym...That is the biggest sensation in weeks! Will attend the BodyStep class. But before that I have to study and attend a"base group" meeting with midterm evaluation. All these evaluations...they give me headache...

Cardiac insufficiency

I am sitting here in my kitchen in front of the computer trying to learn a thing or two about cardiac insufficiency. I'm a bit stressed (and I will probably soon develope heart failure myself) because I'm supposed to be finished tomorrow and I feel tired now...winter time is making me sleepy at night but fresh in the morning (at least this morning...)

We had lecture until 5 pm today and when I got out to take my bike home I had to turn on the lights...*sighs* But at least winter time means that it is leagal to play Peter Jöbacks Christmas CD "Jag kommer hem igen till jul"! I'm longing for the concert with Peter in December that me and Å is going to!

What a night!

Last night was a lot of fun. We didn't make it to the student party down town that we where supposed to attend. But who cares, when the evning was filled with singstar, music, crazy conversations and so much laugther with people you really like to hang out with?! Well, not me! A big thank you to I and M for having us over!

Now I am ready for a new week with lots and lots of study time.

Tonights outfit

Have a lovely Saturday night!

Song of the day - Don't stop me now

Song of the day - If I can dream

A very good song and a wonderful performance by Elvis (a favourite of mine)...but don't forget "...dreams can come true if you know inside you really want them to..." as James Morrison sings in his song If the rain must fall.

This weekend is a study weekend...but there will be time for a party tomorrow night as well...but that party will probably be the last this semester...isn't that crazy?!

Trying to save some time...

This is what happens if you have too many things to do at the same time. This is what happend to me last night when I was making pancakes while studying in an attempt to save time so that I could have at least one hour left of the day to do something else...
So...
...What did I learn from this? You don't save time trying to do two things at the same time, at least not when your body and mind is tired and stressed!
But hey...I thought "Keep calm and carry on..."and then swallowed the cry that was trying to come out and wiped the mess up and carried on with the cooking and after that studying. Instead of studying at the same time as cooking, I decided to eat at the same time..that worked without incidents....

Tomorrow morning there is a meeting about the situation in this third course that the "headteacher" and the "program deputy principal" called for since it has come to their knowledge that there is a lot of stess , worries and thoughts about changing university or dropping out among us students. Hopefully they will listen to us for a changes and actually do something about it that will gain us, and not only the students in the lower courses when they come to our level. I'm not sure they can afford to loose any more students...In the meeting they wanted one representative from each base group, and I'm the one from mine...It's gonna be interesting to see if they go straight into defence mood or if they will be open for discussion.

Well, it's time to go back to the books and this weeks senario about Myocardial infarction...

At least I had a lovely friday night and saturday in Stockholm!

Keep calm and carry on

Long time no see.

Study, study, study...that's all I do now days. I try to relax with some Sex And The City episodes every day as well.
Carrie and the other girls says so many clever and true things that I usually sit in my sofa nodding in recognition even though they can't see I'm agreeing. There was something really true about my generation in the episode that I watched while eating lunch today that I thought I should write down...I'm gonna do that later and write it down here...at some point when I have enough time that is...
Right now I wish the day had 48 hour...at least...
If the day had 48 hour I would have enough time to study, have time to go to the gym and most important I would have more hours to spend together with sis, and W and F and A and the rest of the beautiful people in Stockholm this upcomming weekend. Now it will only be a quick 24 hour stay...but It's better than no time at all! I want it to be weekend now!!!

Until I'm back in business...


I saw this beautiful poster on an other blog recently. I found that you can find and buy it at www.petrifiedinpink.se. I could probably need one...or maybe one in every room...

Absolutely fabulous

I'm soon off to Motala for the evening shift. While I'm working take a look at this video of Tina Turner. She lookes absolutely fabulous! And the song sure makes me wanna dance...

New week...

Monday and that meant an early start at the hospital. Only 2 weeks left...for now, that is. Had a meeting with the other students in my group and our tutor from school. It felt good to ventilate some feelings and to hear that I'm not the only one in the group that feels like this.

I need to study...but I'm too tired. Maybe a walk, before the sun sets will get me focused. It's worth a try.

Take a look at this video. Lenny Kravitz have never looked better! And it's a great song as well...

Beautiful weather, wild raspberries and dog poo...

The sun was shining and the wind was not as hard as yesterday this morning when I woke up around 8.30 am so I decided to take a walk in the forest. It was lovely...(at first) Sun rays touching my sleepy face. A soft breeze in my hair. All the trees with their leaf in different shades of green and yellow and red... and when I found some delicious wild raspberries I thought to my self that it doesn't get better than this! Life is beautiful!

When I got out of the forest, 200 meters from home, I realized that I had put my foot, somewhere along the walk, in dog poo...

Why can't things just stay beautiful and what's wrong with people that own dogs?

Well, at least the weather has stayed more or less beautiful all day. Sat in the sun on my balcony preparing for tomorrows meeting and the work at the hospital. I also started the statistic studies...but I think it is boring, probably because I don't understand it yet...

There has been a lot of songs of the day recently...I'm gonna continue putting songs up since music is such a big part of my life...

Suavemente

Just one more song of the day...

I'll soon call it a day...I'm quite exhausded to be honest. I just need to clean up a bit around here and then I'm gonna spend the rest of the night in bed with Sex and the city episodes...or some lousy movie on the telly.

But before that...here comes a second Song of the day. Enjoy it. Robyn is really talented and this song is one of my favourits at the moment...

It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain

As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance, I promise to never mess it up again
Just a sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away

And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said...(...)

Is purple the new pink?

In an attempt to turn this day to a good day after it's lousy start I took the car to Tornby to buy that Clinique stay sheer pressed powder that's been out of stock in the Åhlens city store. I did of course not only buy the powder...but found a lovely scarf, mittens and a hat as well. All in a beautiful dark purple shade. I belive they will look good with the new black winter coat I bought last week. I have a feeling this will be a purple winter...

By the way...I did send an e-mail to the study and careers advisor earlier...well, all I have to do now is wait and see...she'll probably respond to it on monday, and after that I can figure what to do next.
I was supposed to study today...statistics...but I haven't got anything done. So tomorrow I'll give it another try.

Things to think about...

Maybe Linköping isn't the place for me to be. I've been feeling quite lonely lately. And lonely is not a good feeling.
I know I want to be in Halmstad after graduation from uni...I know that Halmstad is the city I want to live in when I'm ready for the grown up part of life. But maybe I am grown up enough all ready?!
At least one thing is certain these days: I sure don't know anything at all.
Maybe I should make an appointment with the study and careers advisor at school and talk about the option to transfer...if that is possible. Well, I might write an e-mail later today or tomorrow...

Next Thursday I'm going home over the weekend...Maybe everything will fall in to place then...

Anyhow...(as Dolly would say)...Sometimes I'm glad I am the kind of person that saves text messages for years and years...Today I've been reading one I got from my dear old friend P (Who is by the way one of the most wonderful and talented men on earth...)
He wrote the 14th of May 2003: "Var inte för hård mot dig själv. Kram" (Translation:"Don't be to hard on yourself. Hugs")
It's a good thing to be reminded of every now and then...

Song of the Day

I've had to think up a way to survive
Since you said it's over
Told me good-bye
I just can't make it one day without you
Unless I pretend that the opposite's true
Rivers flow backwards
Valleys are high
Mountains are level
Truth is a lie
I'm perfectly fine
And I don't miss you
The sky is green
And the grass is blue

How much can a heart and a troubled mind take
Where is that fine line before it all breaks
Can one end their sorrow
Just cross over it
And into that realm of insanitive bliss

There's snow in the tropics
There's ice on the sun
It's hot in the Arctic
And crying is fun
And I'm happy now
And I'm glad we're through
And the sky is green
And the grass is blue

And the rivers flow backwards
And my tears are dry
Swans hate the water
And eagles can't fly
But I'm alright now
Now that I'm over you
And the sky is green
And the grass is blue
And I don't love you

And the grass is blue

"I-want-to-be-in-London"-day

Today is a "I-want-to-be-in-London"-day...(to be honest everyday is a "I-want-to-be-in-London"-day, but somedays the feeling is a bit stronger like today.)I don't know why...But all I want to do is stroll along the Themes...or in Hyde Park...or in St James's Park or stroll around in any other area where you can stroll. And I want to spend some money at Spitafield market...or Covent Garden...or Kings Road...or Oxford street...or at any other place where you can spend some money...

But here I am....in Linköping after a working day at the hospital in Motala. Got up at 4.30 am after a rather sleepless night...(woke up once every hour looking at the clock, afraid of not waking up by the alarm sound). So I'm longing for the bed now...and hopefully I will dream some pleasant dreams about London...since I don't have time to go in person...

Afternoon tea

The voice

My voice is more or less gone...The Cold has taken my vocal cords as hostage...(You could think that the nose and the lungs would be enough...but NO, it has to take the vocal cords as well!). At least I have the day off from the hospital tomorrow so I will be studying at home and use my voice as little as possible.

Song of the night - My favourite things

Motala

I woke up all sweaty this morning...Motala is giving me nightmares. I've only been to the small city ones...but I already feel hate...unfortunately.The hospital in Motala

Open letter to Cold

Dear Cold,

I'm writing you this open letter to let you know how much I dislike your presence in my life at the moment.

This is my fourth day with you terrorizing me with nasal obstruction, a sore troat and since last night a bad cough. I'm so fed up right now so would you please just f*cking leave me alone!

Sincerely,

Tess

Accessorize

These pretty things from Accessorize would cure me from my cold. I am sure of that!

Cold

Woke up with a sore throat and a aching head this morning.
I don't have time to not be on top this week nor the next upcoming three since I'm starting my clinical placement at the hospital in Motala on Wednesday. I'm not really looking forward to it, but it's a thing you have to do...I would probably look forward to it a bit more if I didn't get the placement in Motala since it will take me approximatly 1 hour from door to door...that means I will hve to get up at 4.30 - 4.45 am when starting 6.45. Zzzzzzzzzz

Well, it's time to make me some lunch, and a hot cup of tea, before I'm off to school for a two hour session with medicine calculation.

xx

Mr and Mrs McKay

Luke Perry is filming a new movie in Trosa at the momnet. I'm thinking about going there to find him and make him marry me.

When we're married we will take the family name McKay and our childern will be named Jack and Iris (after his "parents" of course).
I would be so happy living in Beverly Hills and drive around in the beautiful black porche...ahhh...What a life!!

Cinamon buns

Last night, after a looong day in school and an hour dancing at the gym, Å came over around 7 pm. Quality time with cinamon buns baking on the schedule. Yummy yummy yummy. Now the freezer is filled with buns, so if you ever feel like stoping by for coffee or tea I promise to serve you one or two as well!

This is what I want

Was in Stockholm this weekend to spend some time with my sweet sis. Did some shopping and made a visit to R.O.O.M and their Designers Guild section (fabrics, cusions, wallpapers etc) made my eyes fill up with tears...Everything is so beautiful and it feels so complete!!! I want it ALL, and I want it NOW!!

I wish I had time to go to London soon and pay a visit to the flagship store on Kings Road...I'm in need of some inspiration and there is no better way for me to get it!

My all time favourit interior design coverage/article in a magazine (ELLE interiör, nr 7, 2007) is one about the home of the senior stylist for Tricia Guild/Desigeners Guild, Liza Giles.
When it comes to interior decoration it doesn't get better than this.

It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

Smoothie of the day

It turned out that my pink mixer didn't break down completly the other day, it just got a bit overheated. That means I'm able to do smoothis again! Wohoo!! So...

...the smoothie of the day consist of:

1 banana
1 mango
Jucie from 1/2 lime
Frozen raspberries
and natural yougurt

Welcome to the 3rd semester

Hopefully I will learn some...

Today I collected some books that I ordered over the internet and inventoried what I already had at home that I will need for this semester. And on the above picture is the pile...

It gets quite expensive, but I like to own the books. I want to be able to highligt the text if I feel like it, and I don't want to fight about the books at the library with all the other students. I can always sell the ones I don't want to keep when I'm done with the course. And I try to be smart about the purchases and buy the books I can use in several courses.

But at least some things are for free when you are a nurse student.
Went to the Vaccination Surgery yesterday to get my vaccination for Hepatits B, tetanus/diptheria and do the tuberculin test. On Friday I'm going back for the TB-injection. And the good thing was that I only had to pay a small subsidized fee for the tetanus/dipthera, the others are free!! Good for me and my good for my wallet!

Tonight me and I and some other girls (or young women...whatever you would like to call us) are invited over to Å on dinner. Looking forward to that! It is soooo boring making dinner and eat it all alone...

Too much love will kill you

I did just now understand how you make the YouTube video appear in the blog. No more links! (It's taken me a while...I'm a bit slow sometimes...)

So here comes the song of the day...or the month...or the past half year...or whatever....who cares?! It's a really good song...and today was the first time I reflected over the lyrics. The song is written and sung by Brian May and was performed for the first time at the Freddie Mercury Tribute Concert in 1992.

New curtains

I'm finally done with the sewing of my new curtains. Yeay!!
It took me quite some time, but to my defence it was the first time ever I sewed my own. And I've done it properly, no cheating what so ever!

Well done me!!