Missing

I'm home sick and missing my M tonight.

It would be lovely to girl talk the evening away over some food and then finish with dancing in town. 

Hopefully I'll be able to go home for a visit soon.

This song brings back some lovely summer memories. Memories like that is what you need a day like this when the thermometer displays  - 22,5 C in the morning .

If only...

Stop and rewind would have been appreciated yesterday. Play would have been appropriate today. Pause is the button that would be useful everyday. But fast forward is probably the button I really wish I had...

Anyway...speaking about stop and rewind, take a deep breath and undo mistakes...I read this quote somewhere:

"The person who doesn't make mistakes, is unlikely to make anything at all"

Oh shit!

The weekend always passes by so quickly.
Why is that?

I tried to have some "time off" studying. But it's not very easy when it feels like someone holds a gun against you back and screaming at the same time you should get things done. (And it's especially not easy when that someone is yourself...)

Anyway...Except for writing article summaries and organize myself for the final semester that starts tomorrow I've baked walnut bread for the first time in my life. Tonight I'll enjoy it together with that meat broth that is boiling on the stove.

Tonight I'll try to write some more job applications to send in. Since yesterday I've been thinking about Gothenburg and I'm actually starting to like the idea. First: it got Queen Silvia's children hospital. Second: it's close to "home", it's easy access to Stockholm by train, to Linköping by bus and to London by flight.Third: it's a nice city with good shopping close to the sea.
I feel like it's definitely an option to take into consideration.

Like or dislike?  What do you reckon? 

A nice way to do it...

Shelves can be quite dull...but I think these are nice examples on how to make them more alive and interesting. I might not be all that into the multi colour way...but still...a nice idea that could look really good with some personal modifications...

Finding a job and stuff

I'm tired tonight...writing on the thesis and trying to find a job takes a lot of energy.

A hell lot more than you would imagine!

Ah well...it will all work out in the end I guess. At least we will finish the result to the thesis by tomorrow...and start writing the discussion this week as well.

Straight forward and fast forward is our melody!
Hopefully our tutor doesn't have to many remarks after reading yesterday and today's work...

I need to do some shopping in town...but I don't really feel like getting out even if it finally stopped snowing.
I'm wishing for plus degrees and rain so that the snow disappears and I can take my bike for a ride again...

...THAT my friends would be heaven to me!!

Dream cottage

Perfect!

Disappointment

Sometimes you get really disappointed. It might be about some small and stupid thing but sometimes about things that really mean a lot to you. 

I've got high standards. I always read instructions 5 million times, afraid I might be missing something that might be important and expect other to do the same if their work might affect me or my time. I always do my best. I expect that others do their best. I expect to get answers to questions I ask, because I usually don't ask before I've tried to find the answer myself first (a PBL-damage I have after soon 3 years at this university).

This week I've realised that all the things above are problems. Why?? Because all of the above things always makes me disappointed in one way or another. Unfortunately that is...

I am really disappointed at the moment...

Hopefully I've shaked this feeling off by tomorrow and have some inspiration to write about something nice and beautiful instead... I just had to write this feeling off my mind. Feels a lot better already!

Frozen...

Have yourself a merry little Christmas

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas,
Make the Yule-tide gay,
From now on,
our troubles will be miles away.

Here we are as in olden days,
Happy golden days of yore.
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more.

Through the years
We all will be together,
If the Fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bough.
And have yourself

A merry little Christmas now...

Home and away

I'm in my bed now at mom and dad's place. Feeling dizzy and feverish. And I've sneezed so many times that I lost count...buhu.

At least I've bought all Christmas gifts, been to the hair dresser and finished + posted the PM that had to be written... so I can stay in bed tomorrow if that is what has to be done.

Even though it's nice to be home I can't help being so completely jealous of M and F who are spending Christmas and new year's in Guatemala and Mexico.

Got an e-mail from M and she wrote that she and B were about to take a nightbus from Palenque to Merida...And F wrote in her travel journal that she'e taking a volcano tour...

I'm wishing for lovely dreams tonight...dreams that will take me away...

Reminder to me, myself and I

Lars Winnerbäck - Tonight

It's been about 10 years since I saw my first live performance with Lars Winnerbäck in Gothenburg. If I before that wasn't absolutely in love with his music and lyrics I certainly was after that night.

It all started with the song "Med solen i ögonen". The radio morning show at P3 played it at about the same time a few mornings in a row. And the song touched me in the land between asleep and awake. It was impossible to resist his voice and the rhythm and the lyrics.

10 years later I still can't resist him. Even though his two latest albums doesn't touch me as his earlier work does I still enjoy and appreciate them deeply. He got the ability to put the most common and hardest feelings into words and in to magical lyrics...

...jag är en av alla dom som går och tror
att livet ordnas upp med tiden
jag är en av alla dom som kan ge upp
när jag är söndagkvällsförvriden
vad gör man då
jag är en av alla dom som ser nåt svårt
i dessa jämngrå vinterdagar
är du en av alla dom som vill försvinna
när det känns som mörkret klagar
så är vi två
och jag försvinner gärna just inatt

är det mörkret är det stressen är det vintern
är det Stockholm eller livet
jag är en av alla dom som tagit lycka
i sinom tid för givet
sen jag var barn
jag är en av alla dom som varit barn
men sen glömt bort den färdigheten
jag är en av alla dom som skyller sina
sorger på den här planeten
och den här stan
och jag vill vara lite mer för Dig inatt

men ibland så är jag fast
kan du känna likadant
att allt man gör är bara plast
och faktiskt föga intressant

och är jag ensam på en söndag blir jag dum
och mörkrädd mitt på dan
måste bort från tysta rum
och är du hyfsat likadan
kan vi gå vilse genom stan...

-Lars Winnerbäck-

...with some decorations bought at Tiffany's!

No...maybe not at Tiffany's but at Queens, Spitalfield market, London.

OH, HOW I LOVE THAT STORE!!

You could walk around for ever and look at all the pretty stuff covering the walls and ceiling (and almost the floor as well) without even noticing half of the items.

I guess you could call it Tess-heaven!

Look at these beauties:

The Lovely Christmas Tree...

Coffe and banan smoothie...mmmm!

Smoothie of the day includes coffee and we all know that coffee is the students best friend!

3 dl Milk

4 tablespoons Nescafé powder

2 dl vanilla yogurt (the recipe said vanilla ice cream, but I didn't have any at home)

2 bananas

I found the taste a little acridly at the first tasting, so I added some, about 2 tablespoons, sugar and then it got much, much better!

Christmas card making

Å came over tonight for some card making.

So now I'm done with my first 6 Christmas cards this year. I guess more evenings will be devoted to this hobby of mine.

Here's this evenings result:

You just have to love it!

Look at this beauty!!

I just can't resist golden animals...especially not the sparkly ones.

This one followed me home from London (only £ 2.50 at Paperchase).

I could kill for....

...a Starbucks gingerbread latte right now!

I started this study day at 8.30. I'm reading my third article at the moment...and have three more to go before I start with the work for the child and youth course. Around 4 I'm off to the Valla pony club for a field study about children recreational activities and their impact on health.

Tonight I'm finally doing yoga...it's been too long since last time and my body (and mind) needs it.

I feel quite focused at the moment. And I feel like, even if there is a lot (A LOT!) going on at the moment with the thesis and the child/youth course and my energy consuming kitchen fan problem (in double sense), I can handle it! By doing one thing at the time and not allow myself to freak out (okey, okey maybe once in a while won't hurt...might even be good!) I think I will survive this year as well!

Now I'm gonna brew myself a new cup of coffee...and if I try I might be able to pretend it's a lovely gingerbread latte with cream on top!

Friday night smootihe

Studyday with I today. But I've also been on a walk in the sunshine and then I visited the gym for the first time in about 2 weeks. I'm gonna be in so much pain tomorrow...

So now when I've been so good all day I deserve a hot shower and a smoothie in the couch in front of the telly.

Smoothie of the night contains:

(2 portions)

1,5 dl vanilla yoghurt

2 dl orange and bloodgrape juice

2 eggs

2 bananas

Last night of the Proms

Last night on the telly they showed Last night of the Proms from Royal Albert Hall. I absolutely love it, and I always wish I was in the audience waving with a flag and singing to Rule Britannia, God Save the Queen, Land of hope and glory and in the end Auld lang syne...I would even be satisfied with being outside in Hyde Park doing it.

I'll make it happen some day...maybe next year?!

Anyone up for it??