The moon

The sky is pitch dark...no stars and no moon...
Sometimes when it's cloudy I miss the moon more than the sun.
Even though I love the sun the moon is something special...lights up the darkness and brings you comfort, just as the tulips.

I'm walking down memory lane tonight. I found all sorts of letters and cards and notes and journals while clearing my clutter. Some of it I just read and put straight in the bin but some letters I cannot throw away...like the ones that make your heart smile...and like the one with the ending:

"...yet again I would like to emphasize that you are worth the moons weight in gold, when I look at it, it is made of gold."

Things and stuff...

Long time no see.

I can't really blame my blog absence on being too busy with school work, since that would be a big fat lie...this course really sucks when it comes to learning something. But I won't complain because there is other things to do when study doesn't take all of your time. Like clean, cook, bake, eat, sleep, wash, iron, stare in to a wall, talk to your plants, hang out with people IRL, watch telly and movies, apply for a summer job, read the newspaper, read novels etc. etc. (You probably get the picture)

I have also invested in tulips this last week. I love tulips! Gives me some sort of comfort. A sign that spring is on its way even though it is + 3 C and I can't remember when I last saw the sun...

Yesterday my book, that I got for free, arrived. It's called: Clear you clutter with Feng Shui by Karen Kingston.
Started to read it and it might actually be some interesting reading after all. I have already started to clear some of my clutter...but more can be done. I'll give you an update on how it goes later on...
...Speaking about books I'm also reading Now Let me sing you gentle songs by Linda Olsson at the moment. That's a beautiful novel that I can recommend.

Now I'm gonna iron and watch some episodes Sex and the City and then maybe bake cinnamon buns...

Have a lovely afternoon my friends!

The Butterfly of Freedom

Inspiration

This picture from the interior magazine Sköna Hem inspired me to my latest buying. A new shelf. It's not exactly as the one on the picture, but has the same colour (more or less), the same pattern on the cabinet doors (my shelf has two doors, and no drawers) and is from the same era.

I'm gonna exchange my IKEA TV-bench for this new shelf...And I can't wait to do it. I've hated that IKEA- bench since the day I put it in. It is nothing wrong with, it's a good and functional TV-bench, but it is just sooo not me! The only thing with this new shelf is that my fat-TV won't fit on it...so I have to buy a new TV as well...Oh well, worse things can of course happen... ;-)

A week at "home"

I slept until 12.20 pm today...and it was absolutely wonderful to get a whole night with good sleep! Had a lot of twisted dreams. Guess I had a lot of thoughts, emotions and impressions to process.

Now I'm at "home" in Halmstad. Drove from Linköping around 4. It was dark, foggy and rainy but I got here in one piece!
I've spent the evening in the sofa watching telly and flipping through some interior magazines. A nice and quiet time with mom.

Tomorrow morning I'm off to work...7-10. Haven't been there since summer, so I am actually looking forward to it. (But I probably won't feel like this tomorrow morning at 5.45 when I wake up...)

The plan for my study-free week is to not have too many plans. Take the day as it comes. Ofcourse I've already got some plans like working a little bit, visiting L and her baby togheter with D on Thursday, have some quality time with M when she is not working and visit granma E and grandma H, just to mention a few...

I'm also gonna put up a strategy for 2009...the year who is about to start for me any day now!

Take a deep breath and...

Bad night

I couldn't fall asleep last night....I tried everything...
At 1.30 I changed place to the sofa...fell asleep for 1 hour between 2 and 3...changed over to the bed again...and after the newspaper arrived around 4 I fell asleep and stayed asleep til 5.30...then the alarm went off at 6.
Wonderful...no, not really!

Good luck to me after a night like this...

Only one more day...

I wish...

Bild: Paul Costello

Spotify

I just found an e-mail from J and it contained an invitation to Spotify!

I don't think I could get any happier at the moment. J is my favourite person in the world right now... He sure made my Friday night!

A reminder...

I have some saved text messages on my phone. I've saved them because they mean too much to me to be deleted. The oldest one is from August 2000. I've saved it because it is the nicest thing someone ever told me (or in this case written to me),and I know that the person who wrote it really meant it...I read it when I have a hard time remember the good things about myself...

"När man känner dig är det svårt att skilja på dröm och verklighet..." ("When knowing you it is hard to seperate dream from reality...")

It's good to have a reminder like that when you are in a period with lacking self-esteem like I am at the moment...

...or to be more exact: It is always good to have a reminder like that!

Still in 2008...

I know it's 2009 now...but my new year has not yet started. I'm still in the lousy year of 2008.
I'll be back when things feel a little bit lighter...maybe in a week or so...

The first minutes of 2009

At midnight we went up to the viewing point at Galgberget to look at the fire works in the city.

That was a nice ending of 2008 and beginning of 2009.

HAPP Y NEW YEAR

I wish you all a happy ending of 2008 and a fantastic 2009.
Song of the day is Auld lang syne.
Happy New Year!
//Tess xx

Song of the night - Frank Sinatra singing:Have yourself a merry little Christmas

What would I like to wear today?

During a break in the studying I ended up at net-a-porter.com looking at the fabulous clothes and accessories you could order if you weren't a student...or a normal working person either for that matter.
Anyway...I invented a new game called: What would I like to wear today?

Here is today's result (feel free to give me any of the items as a Christmas gift!): Clutch bag by Fendi

Bracelet by Juicy Couture

Neclace by Juicy Couture Shoes by Marc Jacobs

Dress by Dolce & Gabbana

At least it doesn't cost anything to dream!

New shoes!

Yesterday I decided that I "needed" a pair of new shoes! They look really good to both jeans and a dress/skirt!

I've just finished writing some Christmas cards...Unfortunately I won't send as many as usual, so some of you might get an e-mail instead this year... I hope I will be back in business next year!
Now I need to go to town and finish the last Christmas gifts... after that I'll be sitting with the books and maybe do some laundry...wohoo, what a lovely Saturday!

The sun?

I can not believe what I see...Sun rays are touching my balcony!! Is this for real or is someone playing with me?

I can't remember when I last saw the sun...I think I need to go outside for a while...I know I should study, but you never know when the sun will be out next time and I need every bit of energy I can get right now.

The concert and some thinking

Peter Jöback Oh, Peter Jöback... It was a great concert!


He sings even better live...his voice is..is...no, I won't even try to explain how wonderful his voice is...there is just no word that can describe it justly.

In between the songs he said some true things, like every performer do on a Christmas concert, about peace, taking care of the ones you love, making time for reflection and living right here and right now...

When I think about it...the happiest times in life, and the times you always will remember ,are the times when you lived in the very moment...not thinking about the next year, the tomorrow or the next minute.


When someone ask me to think of a happy place my mind always ends up at a street in Merida, Mexico. On that street, that Sunday night in April 2005 I lived in the very moment. I didn't think of anything...I just let everything flow...and it was so easy. It was so easy because I knew that I had to live it or lose it, just like that...there was only right here and right now...

I know that you can not always live for the moment...you have to make plans most of the time to survive in this world. But I do wish I could have more nights like the one in Merida... nights you wish would never end... and nights that will always stay a happy moment, no matter what the future brings.

And one more thing... I wish I could go to a Peter Jöback Christmas concert every night...all year around!

Enough for tonight...see you tomorrow...Good night...sleep tight...x

Finished

I've written the words I needed to write now and I finished the diagrams as well. So now I e-mailed the document to A so that she can put her work in . Hopefully we will be finished after that.

Now I need to eat some and then put some real clothes and make up on...I'm still in my pyjamas...

Tonight me and Å is going to the Peter Jöback's Christmas concert in Cloetta center....yeay!!!
I'll tell you more about that later.